Sunday, May 23, 2010

Domingo

Es increible. Mi ultima fin de semana aqui.

Sabado
Yesterday, my friends (Rachel & Meredith) and I had a blast at the waterfall. We rode motos out to the waterfall entrance, over rocky roads and through wading puddles. When we got there, it was chilly and about to storm, with a large group already there, from a nearby ranch(o). We got in, and it was f-f-f-freezing! The water was high, and I couldn't swim underneath the fall because of the force; I loved the dip I took though. PB&J's on the shore never tasted better.

Dominicanos often swim in their underwear, and that's exactly what was happening all around us; men, young and old, were swimming in nothing but their undies. It's unavoidable, really. I'll let you create your own mental picture.

I got absolutely soaked walking back in the downpour of rain that started shortly after our departure from the falls--and enjoyed every minute of it.

After a brief time at home, I headed to school to help pack food for the incoming group. Some of the high schoolers were there hosting a facial clinic to raise money for their senior trip. I was impressed; there was even an ultra-violet machine you stuck your head into to see all of the things you didn't want to know existed on your face. While that was going on, Shelly, Jonathan, and I packed up food into tupperware bins and coolers for the Texans to take up to the mountain this week. Packing was finished shortly after arrival.

Then, I headed home and took a nap; really, I lied down on the sofa to read. That quickly became a nap, with sheer exhaustion and the steady sound of rain falling creating the perfect nap environment.

While I was sleeping, I heard a voice in my dreams (or so I thought) calling, "Maddie" in a Dominican accent (Mah-Dee, Mah-Dee). I awoke startled, realizing I was not dreaming at all. Gio, my friend and taxi driver, was at the gate. He came over to visit and check in on me; he's one of my dear friends I'll miss the most. That list of friends is quite long.

Shortly after he left, I heard a clank on the gate. The neighbor from across the street, an eleven year-old named Karina, was returning my roommate's hair straightener. She came in for a bit and sat with me; I offered her water, and we did a little bit of chatting. It's not odd for Dominicans to sit together and stare at each other, even though there's nothing to say. Social cues are sometimes quite different than ones I'm using to experiencing. So, we sat and stared at each other for some of that time.

Then, Shelly came to pick me up, equipped with an extra pair of rain-pants for me to put on, and took me to their house for dinner; off into the night we went. It was surreal being at Shelly and Jonathan's, looking out over the lit Jarabaco, underneath the dark and rainy, night sky. I remembered the first time I had that view -- my first night here. I can't believe time has almost come and gone. They said it seemed like I'd been here for the entire school year rather than a few months, and I agree. My heart feels as if it's been here for ages. We had a delicious bean soup with a well-paired curried-butter grilled cheese. Conversation was cheerful, and the mood was just right. My favorite activity additions to the night were feeding moths to their "pet" lizard, Timothy, and watching Jonathan make homemade peanut butter--then trying it.

Next, we rode off to meet the Tyler, Texas work team just arriving to the Villas. Krista's parents, Carol Ann and Gary, are in this group, and it was a pleasure to meet the whole gang. I have to say it's quite a different group than I'm used to: Texan good ole' boys with lots of construction knowledge and even more of a Southern accent. I guess that's good prep for going home.

Domingo

The work team (First Baptist Church_Tyler, TX), Wallaces, and I headed out to the monastery for church this morning. I was so excited because I hadn't been out there yet, and man, was it worth it. There was an absolutely breathtaking view, pristine landscaping, and a gorgeous church to complete the picture. I felt like I had entered another world. The service was without translation, and I loved every minute of observing the monks, joining in chants when I could, and breathing in the aromatic air.

Afterward, we had a prized time of sharing monk bread, chocolate (drink), and cafe together while learning about the monastery and a monk's daily routine. Truly un bendicion.

When we got back to the Villas, we loaded up and headed over to the school for catered lunch. I loved getting to know the team briefly, before they had to head out to the cafe farm where they'll spend the week.

I've spent the afternoon inside at our apartment, enjoying the sound of rain and getting things "done" before the week starts. God is good to bring us rest and allow us to enjoy His presence and beauty on the Sabbath.

May your week, and especially each individual day, be blessed. To Him be the glory. Amen.

PRAYER REQUESTS:
  • Tennesseeans adjusting and recuperating from the flooding.
  • the terrible oil spill and its affect on the Gulf area, now spreading to the Keys...God protect our waters and its inhabitants, along with all of the people nearby who depend on those waters daily
  • continued preparation for my heart in the transition of going home, most especially what happens when I get there:
  • a job--He will provide
  • interactions with friends and family
  • a church community--and community in general
  • My last week here
  • my friends who are preparing to start their lives together as married couples:
  • Jesse & Drew, Lauren & Chris, Joye & Parker, Jess & Trevor, Katie & Reed, Adrienne & Robert...
  • my friends who have started their lives as married couples:
  • MaryGene & Andrew, Jennigray & Chris, Ashleigh & Chase, David & Mary Kathleen...
  • For God to reveal to me whether or not a certain dream on my heart at the moment is His dream for me to pursue and how to take actions in that, if it is


Saturday, May 22, 2010

rainy days

streets quiet
except for the occasional zoom
legs feel like weights
walking back to my apartment
sopping and dripping
water in my eyelashes
on my nose
He and I are alone
seemingly
no one else around
motos gone
at least for now
few stragglers about
hiding under the trees
and under roofs
waiting for the peet, pat, tap, teep
to stop

my heart
on the other hand
beats with joy
and peace
carefree
me and Him
alone

Friday, May 21, 2010

Lowcountry Rhythms. tap, rap, tap.

OH how my heart pines for the Lowcountry.

Seriously. It's beating pretty fast for this place I call "home", for now. No, I'm not wishing to go back just yet, but it is impossible to diminish my love.

Check out the Vineyard Vines recent spread about our beautiful city (Charleston, South Carolina) and its equally beautiful dwellers.

Also, I was browsing on a design site recently--as I love to spend my downtime--and stumbled upon this write-up about the Holy City.

How can you not agree with these sentiments?? What's not to love? Dogs, coolers, sun rays, water, outdoor enthusiasm, festivals, history, beautifully crafted architecture, music...

Ok, on with it. Life here has been amazing, as usual.

This week, Math Madness has been a blast and non-stop. Kids have painted themselves, chalked the sidewalks, and thrown water-balloons at teachers. There have been costumes and games. Singing and shouting. Running, jumping, and dancing.

Tomorrow, off to the waterfall.

THANK YOU, God for blessings. Many, many blessings.

Love to you!

Tuesday, May 18, 2010

11 days. where has time gone?

I have told you these things, so that in me you may have peace. In this world you will have trouble. But take heart! I have overcome the world. -John 16:33

Waterfall trip --
Saturday, we took a last minute trip to the waterfall once the rain stopped. Eric and Troy picked up Amanda (one of my new roommates); her sister, Hanna; y yo, on their motorcycles. I LOVE that drive. We didn't climb to the top; rain had been heavy, so we decided to hang around the lower waterfall after a short hike.

We had a blast jumping off rocks into the water and sliding down the waterfall. I got a lesson (or refresher) on rock skipping, and I challenged my ever-present fear of heights by jumping off the taller of the two rocks. SO much fun.

Night in Santiago --
Two cars, packed with people, headed off to Santiago Saturday night where we had a fun night at the outdoor mall: dinner at Burger King and a showing of Iron Man II. WOW. A Whopper never tasted so good. As always, my laugh (accompanied by Hanna's) overtook the theatre. I swear, they write those parts to be funny. Am I the only one cheesy enough to find the written humor funny?

Election weekend --
This weekend, I expected things to get crazy...bar fights, real drama out on the streets for all to see. I saw none of the sort. The alcohol ban during the day and the supposed road blocks must have done the trick. The only things really out of the ordinary were more people crowding street sidewalks and corners along with longer and louder car horns through the night.

Temporary stranger --
Sunday, we got a ride home from friends while walking back from church. (Thank you.) Becky, one of the Doulos parents, had just gotten a temporary residence card of sorts. On the back it said in large letters, "NO VOTA." You can understand that Spanish. Then, it said beside that temporary stranger, except in Spanish. As she said, they don't care if things are politically correct here.

Friends heading out --
Miss Erin, my lovely pregnant mom-to-be of a friend, is back in Ohio with her family. Julie Anne, a friend who worked for Anija and who shared Bible study with me, headed out this morning. Amanda and her sister Hanna left for the week; Amanda will return next Monday night. Whitney is getting ready to leave this Friday to celebrate her birthday at home with her family in Tuscaloosa, AL for about a week. Jess and Kymberlee, my old roomies, are also back at home. Times, they are a-changin'.

Wearing many different hats --
This week, that is what I am doing -- for sure. I'm substituting for Amanda's English class periods, hosting Art Club, doing a Pre-K art project, at some point helping prep for the work team a bit, reading to Ciara's 5th grade class briefly, and then helping out with Math Madness various activities. I LOVE variety. This is the epitome of variety.

PRAISE --
to the good Lord for providing me a stellar roommate and apartment to return to at home. I am living with my good friend, Brittany Barrett, and we are going to find ourselves living in the "perfect" apartment she has picked out. I am SO grateful not to have to worry about all of that when I get home, but God has already set it up for me.

Favorite song --
Este semana, I can't get enough of Van Morrison's "Glad Tidings".

Prayer request --
That job I need.

Wednesday, May 12, 2010

Prayers Appreciated

I would greatly appreciate your prayers for continued healing.

Bacteria has taken over my intestines. Yuck. Really, that's how I've felt lately. Also, I thought I had a stress fracture on my right heel; that might not be so. However, there is still a bit of discomfort when I use that appendage.

Today was my first day back at school this week, and I am on the mend. (Praise you, Lord.)

While I was compiling material for a HS English grammar test, I stumbled upon some fun music history trivia in one of the grammar books. Therefore, I will share these gems. Enjoy.

In 1956, John Lennon met Paul McCartney. They worked together to improve their playing; then, they formed a band with others and named themselves The Quarrymen, which was named after their high school. In 1960, they changed their name to The Beatles.

Ravi Shankar is a classical Indian musician who taught the famous George Harrison, who as we know was a member of "that thar band" The Beatles.

George Clinton (heck yes) is the mastermind behind the two greatest funkbands--Parliament & Funkadelic--both gospel, doo-wop, and jazz-influenced bands; as you may know, these bands are more dance-oriented than rock-focused.

Pete Seeger is known as America's tuning fork and was the greatest folksinger. He loved other talented musicians like Woody Guthrie and Leadbelly.

Bob Marley and Bunny Wailer were the founders of Bob Marley & The Wailers (yes, please); other reggae band greats include Third World and Toots and the Maytals. Bob's children--Ziggy Marley and siblings--started their own band called Melody Makers. Marley died in 1981 and lives on as the reggae great of all time. Reggae Sunsplash Festival is (obviously) a reggae festival that began in Jamaica and then went worldwide celebrating and sharing this gift of a genre.

Finally, a gamelan is the word for a Bali orchestra, which I one day want to see.

Sunday, May 9, 2010

Wide Awake

I want to share some things with you that are intimate and honest. I hope through reading this, your heart is also shaken in an intimate and honest way.

I have been scared to come home. God has been doing big, big things in my life here. I come home May 29, which is now twenty days away. I'm not really sure where the time has gone, but I know that God has been good in making every day count.

This morning, I listened to a sermon entitled "What's your name?" from Mosaic's service last week. I have felt selfish and cold this past week, a bit distant from the Spirit; where are you Holy one? He is always there, but I can stray from Him easily. It is up to us to choose God daily.

I have been broken this week physically as well and decided to stay home from church this morning, to have some alone time with God without distraction and fully rest in Him.

In the sermon, Deut. 5, the 3rd commandment was dissected. "You shall not misuse the name of the Lord, your God, for the Lord will not hold anyone guiltless who misuses his name." Three ways we misuse or abuse the Lord's name were shared.

In the conclusion of the sermon, 2 Philippians was read. Before hearing it, I had prayed to have Christ's attitude this morning because I haven't had any attitude but sour. In confession, I have been selfish, critical, judgmental, fearful of the future -- a true worrier, lately. I have been absorbed more in myself than loving Him and others first.

In talking about God's holy name, the thing that broke me most this morning was how we represent Christ as Christians. When people know me or even meet me for the first time, and I
say I'm a Christian, do they know I'm serious about Christ? No one will take Christians for real, unless we take God for real -- and it shows. Does my life following Christ represent the weightiness, intensity, rescue, and true grace of Christ? Do people feel those things when I say I'm a Christian, and they know or see how I live??

What in the world does this have to do with me going home and having fear trying to root itself there? Everything.

I have been fearful in what's ahead because going home requires more boldness than staying. I was awakened to that truth while listening to the sermon and talking to God this morning.

I am returning to a life full of choices, more apparent worldly desires, and people who knew me as the Maddie before I let God work and change me throughout my time here. God will continue to change me at home; He is omnipresent. He will never leave me, and He goes before and behind me, and each of you. There is also no truth present, whatsoever, in my fear that is trying to stand firm where instead peace should be.

Isaiah 41:10 "So do not fear, for I am with you; do not be dismayed, for I am your God. I will strengthen you and help you; I will uphold you with my righteous right hand."

He will strengthen me in weakness, when faced with temptation, when I feel alone. He will uphold me and help me. Romans 8:31 "If God is for us, who can be against us?"

I want people to know I am a Christ follower. I want people to feel the weightiness, intensity, rescue, and grace of Christ when I say the word "Christian" referring to myself. When I go home, that will take continued boldness and courage to follow Him in a landmine of daily difficulties.

To anyone who is offended, taken aback, or even saddened by this, good. I hope you are challenged yourself to what the word "Christian" truly means. Please hear me humbly say that I am worthless, but Christ died for me. I have no strength, but He is my strength. I am imperfect, but in His eyes I am beautiful and whole. I am not perfect in striving to live for Christ, whatsoever. However, life for Christ is not light, simple, or even easy.

We are in this battle together, as one united in Christ. My fellow brothers and sisters, let us live today for Christ, losing ourselves not to the world but to Him. Are you bringing glory to His kingdom by calling yourself a Christian? I want to, and He will give us the boldness we need if we truly seek His desires for us. Know Him. He is Everlasting. Be overjoyed, knowing it does not depend on us, yet He wants to use us.

"May the God of peace, who through the blood of the eternal convenant brought back from the dead our Lord Jesus, that great Shepherd of the sheep, equip you with everything good for doing his will, and may he work in us what is pleasing to him, through Jesus Christ to whom be glory for ever and ever. Amen." Hebrews 13:21 -- My friends, we are already equipped for doing his will. Praise Him.

Saturday, May 8, 2010

Water's Out

Saturday - May 8...Move-Out, Move-In Day

First, tomorrow's Mother's Day. To all you mothers,
HAPPY MOTHERS DAY!
To my sweet mom, a wonderful lady -- I love you and wish you the BEST, most restful
Mother's Day yet!

Whit[ney] helped me move out of Maria's yesterday. It was a hysterical move. I threw everything that wasn't yet packed into grocery bags and one huge trash bag. Yes, I've accumulated that much extra since being here. Looks like I'm leaving lots behind.

Here, as you well know by now, there's always something. We got blocked in by a moto and a truck when it was time to go. The truck driver was standing outside of the cab drinking his Presidente, chilling while we were obviously trying to leave the dead end street with nowhere to back up or turn around. I love everyday adventure. Something I'll greatly miss.

We moved my stuff in, but not really. I threw it in my room and spent the night with Amanda. Today starts the unpacking adventure, that I've been putting off all day.

We woke up this morning, and the water was out. Melanie's boyfriend filled up buckets from the cistern downstairs, and we'll be using that until Wednesday most likely. The people moved out downstairs, and of course there 220 v. powered our 110 v. water tank. Since it hasn't been paid, there's no energy force behind our water tank now. We will be "making do" without water pumping until Wednesday. It is Saturday.

Life is meant to have adventure and challenge. Hope you feel some in your life!

MUCH LOVE -- Happy weekend to you!

P.S. I feel free in my new apt. Give a jump and a yell. Yeehaw!



Thursday, May 6, 2010

God Answers Prayers

...In case you needed to be reminded of that. I do all the time because in my humanness, I doubt him. You crazy, foo?!

Today I prayed, Lord please help me find my folder. Help me remember where I put it. A few minutes later, I thought of a different place to look. God planted that thought in my mind to help me find my folder I misplaced yesterday, because He answers us when we call to Him.

My roommate, Jess, is leaving early tomorrow morning. For the first time, I will be truly alone tomorrow morning and afternoon on my walks to and from school. That feeling won't last long though because I'm moving in with Amanda and Melanie tomorrow too!

I was going back through my Gmail deleting past e-mails when I came across some things that surprised me.

Two years ago, in October, I wrote a friend I had recently met from Brazil; I told her how I had hoped to do an internship in South America the following summer. I don't even remember that desire now! Yet, here I am fairly close to South America, working for a school in the DR.

Also, I found an e-mail from Teach for America's staff letting me know I was confirmed to interview for the Campus Campaign Coordinator position. This was in April of last year; it seems like lightyears ago that I was praying about working for them. The prayer came into fruition this past fall, and I can't believe that time has already come and gone as well!

We really don't give God enough credit.

Wednesday, May 5, 2010

snakes and the good shepherd

My Shepherd Will Supply My Need
-Isaac Watts-

My Shepherd will supply my need:
Jehovah is His Name;
In pastures fresh He makes me feed,
Beside the living stream.
He brings my wandering spirit back
When I forsake His ways,
And leads me, for His mercy's sake,
In paths of truth and grace.


When I walk through the shades of death,
Thy presence is my stay;
A word of Thy supporting breath
Drives all my fears away.
Thy hand, in sight of all my foes,
Doth still my table spread;
My cup with blessings overflows,
Thine oil anoints my head.

The sure provisions of my God
Attend me all my days;
O may Thy house be my abode,
And all my work be praise!
There would I find a settled rest,
While others go and come;
No more a stranger, nor a guest,
But like a child at home.

-- random pic I hope you enjoy --

Chad let me hold this beaut of a creature, pic taken outside of the cafe.

Tuesday, May 4, 2010

To the Grand Ladies in my life...Salud!

I finished "Gardenias for Breakfast" by Robin Jones Gunn last night, and it has now been added to my favorites list.

My mind has been drifting homeward lately, and that's not even my desire. James Taylor's "Carolina in my Mind" has struck some chords, and even though it's written about that other state right above mine, the lyrics still hit exactly the right note. I'm not ready to come home, but then again, I think I am. "Yes I'm up and goin' to Carolina in my mind..."

My new favorite novel reminded me of home in the ways it talked about another favorite of mine: fried okra. There was mention of Atlanta and Louisiana, Southern drawls, homemade cornbread baking in the oven, and fireflies. Gardenias, vegetable stands, aunt's stories of cotillions past, Mt. Zion roadside chapels with steeples and bells, and the Piggly Wiggly or "Hoggly Woggly" as my family says. Humidity, hammocks, porchswings, Sunday afternoon naps, sweet tea, and "Sugah" petnames. Another favorite mention of homemade peach cobbler, lemon meringue pie, and the best gift of all -- grandma's pearls.

These things and James Taylor's sweet, honestly sung words have carried my mind elsewhere in my daydreams, but really I wanted to write about my Grand Ladies. In "Gardenias for Breakfast," the grandmother went by "Grand Lady," and I want to do my best sharing my heart for my two Grand Ladies.

Betty Stoddard and Myrtle Sublett were one-of-a-kind Southern gems. Indeed, each of them was a Grand Lady in my eyes. I sat teary-eyed and weepy last night, joyous rather than sad over memories I will forever keep in my mind.

For those of you who are from the South reading this, you know how much a Southern woman can impact you. For those of you who are not, you most likely still know how much a Southern woman can impact you.

To MaMa, my artiste extraordinare. You taught me about hospitality and enjoying company. I cherish the times I spent with you painting and drawing. Creativity was a true gift that you opened up to all; art was not a born talent in your eyes, but rather you wanted all to experience the great wonder. Your hair was always fixed, and you were always ready to greet anyone who stopped by. I was reminded of you particularly at the point in the story when the great granddaughter talks about her Grand Lady never possessing a driver's license. To some people, driving means true freedom and stands for so much. No one would have guessed you missed "true freedom" in that case, because you were as happy as a lark right where you were. Magnolias blooming outside befit your elegance and grace, your sweet Southern charm. I don't know that I ever heard you say a negative word, even if you were thinking it. You saw the true beauty of life and God's creation. Thank you for teaching me so much, especially to love those around me and to include everyone.

To Grandma Myrtle, my best friend. Even though we didn't talk about all of the hard things in life, I will always hold you as my nearest and dearest friend in my heart. I didn't have to spend days on end with you to know how you felt about me. The part that struck me most in the book was the granddaughter thinking to herself, gazing at her Grand Lady across the table. "I kept smiling at Grand Lady, and each time I did, she smiled back. She saw me. Even with her aging eyes, she saw me. Her tender gaze made my heart swell. If I had to define why I was so enamored with my grandmother, it would be for this reason. Every other reason would fall in under this one. When I was a blossoming young woman, she looked at me, and she saw me. She saw not only who I was then but also who I would become, and for some reason, she decided to lavish her affection on me. She was the first person in my life that made me feel as if she saw me and loved what she saw."

I felt that way about the way you looked at me. The best part is how pure your glistening blue eyes were; all I saw was love and acceptance, sheer pride. I never saw hatred or anger. If I did, it was only for a mere second. Then, my other favorite thing about you comes into play. Laughter, happiness, joy. "She could still deliver her lines with all the sugary airs of refined sass that only a woman like her could get away with." Grandma, you were killer when it came to humor. Everyone was always bowled over laughing, and if they weren't I was bowled over for them. I've never known a funnier woman, and without much effort at that. Your wide-eyed view of life made me want to soak up every drop then, and I carry that passion with me now.

To the most Grand [Southern] Ladies I know, Salud. Cheers. You are my inspirations as I go about life. I hope I one day inspire my granddaughters and children as much as you inspired those same people throughout your lifetimes. To the strong, graceful, and honeysuckle-sweet women in my life...I thank you.

Thursday, April 29, 2010

Cockroaches in my hair

No, that does not happen often. But honestly, I feel like it's one more thing to add to the list this week. Wow, is God testing me. Or more likely, I sure am testing Him.

Do you ever feel like you can't think anymore or breathe until you can write? Write it out? That's how I feel right now. I can't do anything else in this moment but write. I am screaming inside. I crave a release. This post will be all over the place, so I hope you're in the mood to stay with me. A sincere apology to those whose e-mails and messages are being avoided right now for my writing thirst that must be immediately quenched in this way.

Cockroaches in my hair -- Last night, I was leaving the bathroom in the dark, in mid-sleepwalk fashion, and this fast-moving object flew through my hair and brushed my cheek. Not only did it scare me, but it gave me that eerie feeling that makes you squeal and throw a quick fit (which I did). Jerked suddenly awake, I scanned the air around me with my flashlight and saw a cockroach scurrying back up my closet door. Gross. I felt violated. Back to bed for me, a little bit spooked.

Group pic -- Today at school, we had our all-campus and then all-staff photo. This was not announced prior to today, and as life seems to go, I hadn't taken a shower. Well, it was mad chaos (borderline organized chaos) getting everyone together. Ten o'clock recess rolled around -- time to head to the soccer field for the pic. People had forgotten, and I was trying to round up faculty and students here and there assuming we were still taking the picture. Surprisingly, the elementary students were organized first and somewhat patient in waiting for the picture-taking to begin. Of course, when the shutter was going off, no one was truly looking at the camera, and we couldn't really hear the photographer counting 1-2-3 or uno, dos, tres...was he? That should be an interesting product.

HEAT -- Hot as Hades. Wish I was joking or being exaggerative. Good Lord, it is hot. I feel much like my clothes have been painted on, and then they're melting off as the day goes on. Quite a change from last week; Mosaic work team from Ohio took all of the breezy, cooler weather with them when they left. (Come back!...like that's the only reason I wish they were still here.)

Spring Cleaning? -- There is a cubby in the classroom above the amphitheatre that needs cleaning out. Anyone who knows me well, (hey you, reading this), knows I love cleaning out things. I volunteered to clean out this area, and there was a time today that was perfect for such a cleaning break. If I wasn't hot before, I only got hotter smothered without a breeze in the little black hole of a space. This classroom would be placed in the semi-outdoor space category, so there's an open hole to the amphitheatre on one wall. There were spiderwebs; spiders in those webs; rat and bat droppings; mildewed, wet papers; dirt, dust, and more dirt and dust. I was scared to lift up papers and scrap pieces of filthy cardboard fearing what may surprise me from underneath. Thankfully, no such surprises occurred. I'm not finished just yet, but I had a great start. "Accomplished" would be a good word to describe the feeling I love to have when I've cleaned and organized a space. What all was in that hole you ask? A tall file cabinet, a chair, Scrabble, files, papers, candles in glass cups, maracas, a drum, books, carpet mats, a cardboard box of paint, a music CD, and a few other things that all aid in cluttering a space.

Art pictures -- This week, my main project has been taking pictures of students' artwork made throughout the semester, to help catalog and save Doulos students' work. Again, if you know me, you know I would love something like this -- a project, involving art and organization. Yes, please. I love taking pictures and the time alone. I love looking through the beautiful creations Erin has helped them create. It's a good reminder of how much I love photography too. I feel blessed in my internship positions for many reasons. Reason 506: I get to experience lots of different tasks and see so many angles of Doulos, its staff, and students.

Trying me -- That's what life here at Doulos does, mainly because we are lacking so many foreign comforts that are easily found in a US school setting. It's a good lacking, in my opinion. In fact, that's something I'll majorly miss when I go home -- being tried frequently. For my example, I'm referring to my art-picture-cataloging project. I don't have a computer to use and have to therefore wait until a stationary computer is available, or until I'm able to "check out" a library laptop to use. I have to go to and from Jonathan's upstairs loft office to the library in the other building to gather things I need for this project, like the camera. We have one campus camera to use. Oh, you need it right now? Ok, I'll work on this later. Flexibility, my friends. It's a good trait to work on or possess. Trying. The camera angle is slightly funky and doesn't take the picture like I see it in the viewfinder; take 4 for Picture #1. I don't possess memory sticks at school, and we have two-or one-stationary computer to use that has a USB drive available when I do need to use a memory stick. So, yeah. You get the gist.

Talent -- Staying on the whole art-review project theme, these kids have talent! Go, artists, go. Ms. Erin's got it goin' on as far as teaching goes. Talk about creativity and true craftsmanship!

Big A** Fans -- I just heard about this fan company you may be aware of already, but check it out for yourself. They made the fan that spins above check-in at the Santiago airport here. That is one BIG A** fan.

Music -- Thank you, God, for music. He never ceases to lift my spirits with His tunes. Right now, John Coltrane's "Vilia" is playing sweet melodies to my ears. I can feel like I am burning in these flames hot as blue blazes, and then my music transports me to a dreamlike state far, far from here and my feigned misery. What is one of the things I miss most about home? Live music. Concerts. Dancing to live music. Feeling the pluck of a bass's strings in my heart, a piano's soothing and energetic ascension. I could continue to describe, but then I might start crying. I'd say I'm doing fine if that's all that makes me want to cry.

We Wear Giant Capes -- Or so says Ciara, our 5th grade teacher. She described my sweaty mane of thick waves draping my neck perfectly. Hair sometimes feels like a cape. Superheroes look free in their costumes, right? Well, when I am hot, all I feel is trapped and smothered with this cape of hair seemingly tied around my neck throughout the day.

Young Life -- I was so excited to help Tim sing worship at YL club this past Tuesday night. For me, I look forward to those nights so much. I am not a leader and therefore cannot and do not attend clubs regularly; I only go when I am needed for worship. We sang "The Reason," "How to Save a Life," and U2's ballad to God, "Still Haven't Found What I'm Looking For." Skits were a riot, the message was powerful and rockin', and kids were abundant. Praise the Lord.

Honest Kiss -- U2's "Still Haven't Found What I'm Looking For" sings "I have kissed honest lips...but I still haven't found what I'm lookin' for." We are told in Proverbs 24:26 that "An honest answer is like a kiss on the lips." If you've kissed someone, you know how amazing that is. If you haven't, you can imagine. "An honest answer is like a kiss on the lips." How crazy is that?! Honesty is exactly as they say -- refreshing and hard to find. Well, maybe the kissing part isn't hard for you to find, but when it happens is it not great? I don't really give kisses out these days, but I do strive to be honest. I want my life to be an honest picture of walking with Christ. I want my answers to be honest, even when it's painful because as Proverbs tell us, to both parties it really should be like giving -- and I think receiving a kiss on the lips. Honesty. Try on being sexy for size. You know what I mean. There's nothing better than a Godly kind of sexy that has nothing to do with clothes on or off. See Rob Bell's Sex God for more of that bit.

True Rejection -- This is what's on my heart right now. Boy is God breaking me and giving me a reality check -- or a "God-in-my-life-check." In the book we're reading with our Bible study (Beth Moore's "Praying God's Word: Breaking Free From Spiritual Strongholds"), we studied Rejection this week. How powerful of a hold we let that feeling have on our lives. Blech. Ridiculous. They don't like me, I don't look cute, I'm not dating anyone when friends are getting married. LIES. Straight from you know who. Thankfully, God won't and doesn't stand for it. However, we've got to tap into that goodness He gives! I'm also reading this teenage girl book right now (yes, and I don't feel rejected by your thoughts-joke) called Girlfriend, You're a B.A.B.E.! I'm on "A." for "Accepted." I am so accepted, and you are too -- even if you're a boy reading this or a man or father or however you would describe yourself. I've got some blocks that need to be torn down between me and God. I have been here this whole time loving the work God's done in my life, which is so good; in reality, there's a lot more that needs to be done. I'm not truly trusting Him with my heart and His plans for one day "meeting Mr. Right." I've experienced healing from past relationships, I've grown in selflessness and grown out of selfishness (no, I'm sure not fully), I can now see myself married to someone one day soon rather than how I used to think about marriage -- 10 plausible years down the road. Well, Miss Maddie, do you not find your acceptance in Him? I am never, never, ever rejected by God. I am praised by Him and welcomed by Him. My Daddy. God's changed my heart toward that one special relationship, and now I give Him my timing and hopes. 1 Samuel 12:22 I am His and no other's. As I almost wrote "for now," I change it to "now" I am fully content in that knowledge and choose to walk in faith. "For I know the plans I have for you declares the Lord, plans to prosper you not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future." Jeremiah 29:11

Snakes in the Cafe -- Well now, Maddie. That's deceiving. That snake was welcome in the cafe. After school, I was running an errand and walking past the cafe. I heard all of these kids squealing with excitement and nervousness, and I looked over to see Chad holding a boa around his neck. I jumped up with my own excitement to pet it with an "Awww" sound releasing from my mouth. He asked me if I wanted to hold it, and of course my answer was yes! I carried it around, as it continued to constrict itself into a smaller form close to my neck, in perfect snake-like form. Kids wanted to see, wanted to touch -- and quickly pull away. They asked me so many questions I didn't really know the answer to, but I have to say, those snake-holding moments topped my list of best moments of the day. A 3rd grader had brought it to school for Chad to let go behind his house in the mountains. We don't have poisonous snakes here, only poisonous spiders. A friend asked what would happen if he bit me. I said, well, it would hurt but he's not poisonous. And there's comfort in that, right?

Staff Awards -- Today, we had to turn in a form filled out with our nominees for staff awards in true Doulos style. The categories were for one winner in each of the Outward Bound Expeditionary Learning Design Principles, for an overall best teacher and "Doulos of the Year" (see Philippians 2:5-8) staffer, and for each of the following character traits: Honesty, Self-Control, Trustworthiness, Humility, Faithfulness, Patience/Perseverance, Love, Goodness, and Kindness.

Done. And DONE.

Wednesday, April 28, 2010

What's Been Shakin' Down South...

props to Julie Haylsip (middle right, blonde in black tee) - taken atop Spirit Mountain

A Typical Friday - April 16...

Had a killer nacho dinner at Erica's, with mango on the side and headed over to worship at Patrick and Erin's house. I walked around town for a bit with my pack on my back since I was heading to the Villas the next day; I felt so traveler-esque, and so American. A blondie with a pack roaming around town in Chaco's. Stereotyping made easy.

It turned into a karaoke night after having a blast lifting our voices to the Lord; Patrick continued to play on with Hootie and the Blowfish and other classic rock favorites. (Oh, and how could you forget desserts galore?) Praise night is my absolute fav.

Kymberlee and I walked back with Whitney and spent the night at her house. Even though the work team was coming the next morning, I stayed up spending time on frivolous things like Facebook, allowing myself to indulge in the internet.

Work Team Arrival - Saturday, April 17...Roomie, Jess's birthday

There are no curtains in the guest room, and Kymberlee and I awoke with the sun (Good Morning, Earth!) -- and many roosters, of course. Whit made us french toast, and I packed up my things to hop in the taxi when Gio arrived honking. Off to the airport again. I look forward to the rides with Gio, learning more about each other and practicing Spanish, on my end that is.

Mosaic was on the way from Ohio to New York to you guessed it, here. Check out their site to learn more about this amazing community in Christ.

Meet the crew...all-around fantastic friends, brothers, and sisters
Guys:
Ted Kruse- pastor, comedian (given title)
Kevin Locke- business owner, consultant, strategist, dad
Zach Locke- High School soccer, working/playing with kids
Ben Locke- High School soccer, I love kids!
Jack Thompson- High School soccer, skits, guitar, love kids
Brock Kertoy- college grad, evangelism, encouragement, soccer
Dave Smith- dad, drama, graphic design, sign maker, creative, insightful, love kids, draw, paint

Girls:
Alissa Kruse- mom and mom-to-be, kindergarten teacher, creative, leader, loves kids, teachers
Nicole Rice- mom, art teacher, creative, painter, organization, leading, excercise
Colleen Locke- mom, discipleship, design, creative, store owner - vintage interior design stuff
KC Locke- High School Volleyball, teaching kids, love kids
Julie Hayslip- social worker/Child services, talking, listening, leadership, crafts
Michelle Surrena- mom, art teacher, acting, painter, good with kids
Erika Hayslip- mom, R.N. (nurse), creativity, crafts, problem solving

Quick rundown of the day: "Hi, group!" at the airport where we loaded and met briefly.
-rested at the Villas for a minute
-had some grub made by the cafe: delicious tuna sandwiches and other wraps
-took a tour of Doulos where I tried my best to explain things and give a tour of campus without the buildings being unlocked
-got fresh and ate dinner before heading over to school
-where there was a bluegrass concert put on by the US Embassy's cultural branch at Centro Franklin..."The Student Loan" played, and man did they play. I was excited to see the workteam -- and Dominicans' -- response to bluegrass on a Saturday night. I was not disappointed with people dancin', hoopin', hollerin' and clappin'. I got up and danced around a bit too -- as previously mentioned, it's impossible to listen to bluegrass sitting still.

Sunday, April 18 - Tryin' out church...

I remember what it was like for me the first time at La Vid (the vine) -- overwhelming, exciting, and foreign. I imagine it was a lot of the same for the workteam.

We had some mango and cereal, then headed over to church at 10. We were surprisingly early. Music and worship was intense and all-in as it should be and as it always is there.

The group loved Pastor Luis singing a "Bienvenidos" song during the greeting time, where people travel all over the church not simply to the row behind them.

We had an interesting couple with YWAM (Youth with a Mission) and their son talk about their new ministry in Azerbaijan, near Iraq. They used to live in the DR and were back for a visit to share about their new ministry. The husband spoke for the message, which was a bit ironic; our group from Ohio came all the way from the US to hear an American speak at church. He talked about something that has really been on my heart in my time here, something that God has been showing me a lot about how to defeat -- strongholds. Por ejemplo, 2 Corinthians 10:4-5 "The weapons we fight with are not the weapons of the world. On the contrary, they have divine power to demolish strongholds. We demolish arguments and every pretension that sets itself up against the knowledge of God, and we take captive every thought to make it obedient to Christ."

The group had lots of mixed reviews and opinions of the sermon, so it was a fun discussion throughout the afternoon.

We had lunch at church afterward, and I really enjoyed being the only ones in the open space of the shed, with the breeze blowing through and mountains in the background. (I love the view from La Vid.) Order up: huge carrot slices, tortilla chips, and ham sandwiches -- pretty un-Dominican. We changed clothes and headed up to Manabao to see Spirit Mountain.

Spirit Mountain is the cafe farm owned by Chad Wallace (Doulos Project Manager) and another partner. You drive out in a taxi to the bottom of the mountain, passing by all of these little houses and driving down windy, rocky roads where at the end you get out to hike. The hike starts out with a somewhat questionable suspension bridge, and when you get to the gate, you've hit Spirit Mountain. While Chad was explaining a bit about the coffee and how it's produced to us, Keren, his 7th grade daughter, was running around chasing baby chicks. I wanted to join in.

Then, we headed up by the river on the trail that the last Mosaic team cleared out. Some of the views look tropical, others remind me of home, while still some look like I could have been gazing out from a European mountaintop onto goats and green spances below.

When we reached the top, the view and almost equally the breeze were both killer. The stone stepping path was just put in by the 4th graders the week before, making it easier to get from the water source to the sheltered kitchen.

Sunday night, we hung out at the villas and enjoyed each other's company. Devo times are always special, especially with Mosaic!

Monday, April 19 - First day of chaos at school...

We started off the day right by making it to staff prayer on time!! (Woohoo! resounds in my head.) Afterward, the group checked out morning flag where we have student assembly: prayer, "Doulos" display of creativity, the pledge, and morning announcements.

Then, they participated in what we call a BBK (Building Background Knowledge) on Education in the Dominican Republic. It's a fun time for groups to learn more about education, while challenging themselves to engage and learn with the bits and pieces of information given. At the end, each group presents to the whole with a large web they've created.

During this time, I was trying to figure out exactly where everyone was heading. I decided to take it one day at a time. All of the teachers hadn't filled me in on when/where they needed help, and some didn't need help at all throughout the week. That meant creative problem solving needed to come into play -- (enter Maddie).

Some days run together, and I can't remember if this afternoon was one where Mosaic crew played some soccer with our kids, but that happened a few times throughout the week. Did I mention they were mad-skilled at soccer?? (for the whole, that is)

Tonight, teachers were hosting the team, which was something new and fun for everyone to participate in. I got a last minute text to join Jack, Nicole, and Julie at Tim & Whitney's house. (Yes!) I was going to hang out by myself, and although I was exhausted I love feeding off of others and re-energizing. We had amazing fajitas, homemade salsa, and a smorgasboard of dessert. I've never liked lemon squares more. The best part of the evening was the conversation, where we all exchanged stories about our lives and got to know each other.

We came back and shared our times with one another -- what did you have to eat, where did you go, what did you talk about, what did you learn. I know a lot of the Mosaic peeps loved hearing about life as a missionary here.

Tuesday, April 20 - on a roll...

BREAKFAST. We had a huge breakfast, full of choices almost every morning at Cafe Taino. What a surprise! Cheese, scrambled eggs with fixin's, grilled cheese/ham treats, juice, hot chocolate, toast, oatmeal, the list goes on...

Folks were squeezed in here and there again. Praise the Lord for patience and grace, because
Mosaic needed a lot throughout the week. They had to depend on me to tell them when and where to be, and it was not always immediate that they got those directions.

I really enjoyed the challenges presented to this team, because although they were different than one would expect on an average mission trip (i.e. physical tests, poverty...). Many were challenged by the slow, somewhat disorganized pace and way of life here in the Dominican Republic. We come from such a go-go-go society in America, where our culture appreciates material goods and use of time, the amount of your success, and so many other things that don't make much sense to me now. Our group was challenged by this throughout the week, and at the beginning I didn't have so much hope. By the end, God had really turned things inside out and showed up where He was least expected.

Here are some ideas of what Mosaic did throughout the week:
Erika, R.N. - helped with hearing/eye checks
Kevin, Jack, Zach, Ben, Brock - building lights for the garden (and working their bottoms off), digging trenches in the garden, moving rocks, you name it
Julie, Colleen, KC - helped Ciara in 5th grade, Erica in 1st, Amanda in 4th...
Dave - working on signs in the woodshop - and on paper in the library
Alissa - kindergarten teacher aid extraordinare

Time for family dinners!

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There's so much more I want to write, but for now I'll have to conclude. If you want to know anything at all about the week, know that God stirred and moved. He shook and brought joy, tears and hope. Friendships were built, and memories were made -- ones I think will last a lifetime, but that's my opinion. Personally, I cherish my friends at Mosaic and can't wait to see them next.

Much love to you! Peace in Christ always.

Art at its finest

Please take some time to glance at beautiful final products from expedition week! All thanks due to the wonderful Mrs. Erin Pace, an art teacher muy talentosa y fabulosa y sus estudiantes y sus duro trabajo.
8th Grade Freshwater Ecosystems
-Christian-


-Marleny-

8th Grade Watercolor Pattern

-Darwing-

3rd Grade Symmetry Study

-Nathan-

2nd Grade Line & Transparent Color

-Daniel-

2nd Grade Australian Animals

-Cristina-

-Marberlin-
1st Grade "I Can Draw an Elephant"

-Helenita-

High School Silhouettes--Sunset & Sunrise

-Sarah-

-Mariana-
-Glenys-
-Carter-

-Tobi-


This is what I did all week. Hope you enjoyed the pictures.




























Saturday, April 24, 2010

Expedition Night

I will write more later (promise), but last Thursday night we had a grand celebration of hard work and learning at Expedition Night. My friend, Meredith Morton, and her 2nd grade class was spotlighted by the local Jarabacoa newspaper. Check out the pics and story, (and grab the opportunity to practice your Spanish!).

Oh...Colleen, a new friend from Mosaic church in Ohio, helped me make the train painting in the picture.

Monday, April 19, 2010

So little time.

To write that is. I always find myself in the same predicament, and oh how I wish my fingertips simply poured forth my thoughts as fast as possible. I am so impressed with authors now, mainly for their patience and ability to write when I would rather tell someone!

Bluegrass concert -- what a blast!! This band was kickin'. They were sponsored by Jazz at Lincoln Center, and all of the members went to Bowling Green together. Erin, my pregnant, art-teaching friend, was having a ball dancing on the floor with kids. The work teamers and I joined in, along with other kids. How can one possibly listen to fast-pickin' bluegrass sitting still?? Or sitting at all?? I can't.

Mosaic work team -- arrival=a success. I'm getting ready to go watch a soccer game of them and the Doulos kids playing together. This group's got a different mix than last time: about half and half men and women, including a family of five in that. Soccer talents run strong. God is really blessing me with feeling like I've finally got "it" down for my last work team, whatever "it" is!

Teaching English -- Today, I felt in command. I felt a calm peace, without anxiety. Can we say "Holy Spirit?" Thank you, Jesus. Father, you are good. I love those kids so much; they are hilarious and so unique in their own ways. I say mad props to you teachers in the world. Job well done. It is not quite my calling, but you are a gem to us as people, for all that you do and all that you give of yourself.

Cafe farm -- The trip to Manabao yesterday was exhausting and exhilerating; oh how I love being in God's creation. The view was breathtaking, the breeze was flowing, and the clouds were giving us perfect shade. We ate some raw beans and climbed the newly-built trail to the top. Then, we heard the thunder. Light showers came just as we reached the bottom: all in His perfect timing. (Praise Him, Praise Him.)


Nighttime journeys -- We had a fun time last night walking late in both directions (at different times of course) from the villas in search of Snickers. The quest was long, as most stores were closed. The collective "we" here is referring to me, Brock, Ben, Zach, and Jack, mostly the younger guys of the group. We stopped at a bar asking for candy, seeing other candies atop the bar, but then I wasn't sure if the guy working there was trying to find me a Snickers or "hook me up" with something I didn't want...a.k.a. some kind of drug. After changing our minds to his offer, we wandered further down the street and found the treasure. Snickers galore, and for cheap! That was a fun trip, and it was also my first memorable experience out at night in town. That may sound pathetic, but when you're an American blondie without perfect Spanish, you don't travel downtown at night [often] and never alone.

Short and sweet is not always the way I like it, but when you have little time and lots of thoughts, it's the way to go. Blessings to you! May God shine light on your dark places, and may you find comfort and joy in His goodness.

Tuesday, April 13, 2010

Ay!

so much to say, so much to say...(Dave Matthews background music fills in)

But so little time! I'll update on the fam visit later -- a blast! I miss them lots already. I have never, in fact, missed South Carolina, my family, or my friends more than I do living here.

NEWS UPDATE: "This just in..." The work team comes Saturday, and that night we're having a bluegrass band play at Doulos! Centro Franklin, the cultural division of the US Embassy, is presenting the Rhythm Road: American Music Abroad program, featuring the bluegrass music group, "The Student Loan" in-country from 14-20 April. The group is described as bringing a fresh voice to the world of American folk music, and we're a stop on their country tour!

LOVE!

Tuesday, April 6, 2010

Woooweee! Who knew I could write this much...

Tonight’s meal ticket was spaghetti with aji (bell peppers) and tostones (our favorite fried banana treat).
I really am dumbfounded as to where and how to start catching you up on life here! So, in my favorite style, let’s start with today and work backwards.

MONDAY, April 5 –
Today, I was fully exhausted, which was not how I envisioned work starting upon return from spring break. Spanish lessons after school were fun, where we focused on “ser” and “estar” some more, along with vocab and alphabet review. (“k” – kuh sound) Nelly really is a fantastic teacher who puts up with my constant desire to learn vocab words and interrupt our lesson by finding them in the diccionario.

I talked to Mom, Wes, and Dad about their upcoming TRIP TO SEE ME!! They’re arriving tomorrow night, and I can’t wait! It’s the first time my dad has traveled internationally since my parents’ honeymoon cruise in ’87. May I remind you that they are now divorced; that was a completely different era! Hooray for Dad’s bravery (which is being tried).

For the first time, I felt the presence of building relationships in English class, rather than feeling like that random girl who helps out in class from time to time.

It really was great to be back at school today, to see friendly faces and share smiles and spring break stories. Afterschool on our way home, we felt like big shots. Not really, but boy do we love running into Dominicanos we know about town! That way, the groups of men who normally cat call in that area may stop, if even for a minute, while they see us talk to a local. (GASP! A local!!) For a split second, we are not the Americanas with arms, legs, and pale skin but rather people who are connected to the community. Take that.

LAST NIGHT, April 4/5 –

This is a significant entry because…DUDE. I could not sleep last night. I was not sure if it was from sheer physical exhaustion, giddiness and my planning ways toward my parents’ upcoming visit, receiving a dear friend’s recent text message, or who knows what. I could not sleep, for the life of me. Kymberlee and I attempted to drift off around 9ish, while we were lying in bed reading. Hours went by, and we shared a giggle fest at 11:30 PM for a good while, because as you must know, everything at that time is funny. Especially life in the Dominican Republic.

We took to pills. Benadryl, that is. I was ingenious and took two, following the box’s “1 or 2” order for adults over twelve. My logic was, well, I’ve lost hours already, I’m beat, and there’s only a handful of hours left to grab; I better get to sleepin’! Unfortunately, the pills had every effect but the ones I originally intended. A dual drug-induced sleepiness and steroid-like heart pumping occurred, where my heart was not allowing me to be still. My exhausted, drugged self wouldn’t allow for an awake state either. I tried reading my Bible, I tried pacing the floor. I shuffled down the hall. I even cried. Who knows what time I went to bed, because I don’t. I still don’t believe it really happened after all that mess. Benadryl, I now abhor you and will avoid you at all costs.

[RAT!!] I let out a blood-curdling scream while madly kicking off the covers and jumping onto Kymberlee at about 1:30 AM. A hot-blooded, large animal suddenly lurched itself onto my foot, causing this mid-slumber scene to startle Kymberlee out of her Benadryl coma. “WHAT,” she loudly whispers. I scared her half to death, which had to have been more than I scared myself. I told her there was a large animal in our bed, to which she threw back the covers and asked, “WHERE?” She was being the brave one, and I couldn’t believe it wasn’t moving, racing about the sheets. “THERE,” I said, pointing to the mound under the comforter. She grabbed the comforter and – yank – there was nothing there. Much to my dismay, the mysterious creature turned out to have been Kymberlee’s heel. All that excitement for nothing…but a good story.

EASTER, April 4 –
What a day! Praise, joy, and the resurrection. Jesus – the life, the way, the truth was celebrated in full with dancing and singing at church, La Vid (the vine). Youth With A Mission (YWAM) had their first kids camp in town, and at the end of the service, the kids performed for us! The 10-13 year olds gave us quite a show with a thug-like dance to the song “En La Calle.” Pretty dank, if you ask me. All of the acts were absolutely precious and worth every penny (joke).

My morning devotion and the message were linked; God so often blesses me in this way here. I really only need to say one thing:

“The evidence of knowing God is obeying God.” –Eric Alexander

…but I won’t. I’ll say more. A favorite line from my devotion went as follows, “God is looking for those who have the flexibility to pick up and go when He says to pick up and go, and to sit down and stay when He says to sit down and stay. “ Numbers 9:15-23 is a perfect illustration of this. Believe it or not, we are called, not to live our own lives, but to live HIS. Those of us (me, me!) who want to save our own lives must lose them, and if we lose our lives we will be saved!

During church, I was overjoyed hearing this because God has truly been transforming me, because I have let Him. (And hear this – I am far from perfect and know that to be so true.) However, in coming here to Jarabacoa, I gave up a piece of my plan, whatever that was. He has been teaching me to give up more and more of myself to gain more and more of Him.

The pastor, Keren, challenged us – Maddie [fill in your name here], if you really to walk with me, you have to stop walking with your old self. Living here, I have started shedding my old self and have never felt so vulnerable, yet so free. My ultimate fear was addressed. What if I start putting on my old self when I get home, back in the US? You know what, that’s what Satan wants me to think will happen. I blatantly refuse to accept living life as the old Maddie. The new one, who is growing in wisdom – the only wisdom that matters – is who I want to be. I really just ask you to peer into yourself and ask if you like what you see. It’s not easy. We almost never want to do it. Read Romans 11:29, and be comforted. His calling on our lives is permanent! He will never leave us, even if we do forget our new, better-in-Christ selves for awhile. Our imperfections never mar His flawlessness. (P.S. God made us in His image, and He thinks we’re each beautiful, as He made us unique!)

Easter dinner couldn’t have been more fun. It was one of those sit-back-and-take-it-all-in moments for me. There was a feast of food and thirteen friends around one big table. As we Americanos were far from America, I felt at home celebrating Jesus and His resurrection. Tim and Laura Stanley, a couple that works at Jarabacoa Christian School, were the hosts. Oh, how could I forget their dog Holly and cat, Mune (named after a Dominican hot chocolate cube). We brought the little we could contribute, which we decided would be carrot cake. We walked from church, sweating in our jeans, to La Tinaja Café and bought the best bundt carrot cake in town.

SATURDAY, April 3-

I slept in. And loved every minute. Jess and I walked into town to meet Julie Anne. We were heading to register for the 10K! What a Dominican experience that was. There was a “21 Maraton in Las Montanas” banner on a side street in town, and we heard registration was near some government building. I pointed us in the direction of the Ayuntamiento (City Hall). As we strolled in that direction, some boys with their numbers already on let us know we were heading the right way.

Rounding the corner at City Hall, we saw the registration table. We had arrived at 12ish to sign up for the 3 PM race. There was of course hardly no one else signing up, and very little direction was given from those “orchestrating” things. We signed up in the “Feminines Superior,” our delegated age bracket. We were given a floppy, magnetic-like red number. “09” I was the ninth girl to sign up in this category, and the race started in 2.5 hours. Filling out the registration form was tricky in our Spanglish. The girl asked me for my “phone number,” and I thought she was asking for my “full nombre.” From there, they gave us two white circles stamped and signed (very official) – one for medical, and one for food. What that meant, we had no idea.

We passed the table and asked around for what to do next. There was a long line waiting outside of a wooden door inside City Hall, that was supposedly where we entered for the Medical Exam. Wait, what? Is this required to race? I’m not going in there by myself. What are they doing? We waited in line for literally forty minutes, while the Dominican Red Cross took their lunch break. Oh, the food ticket? That was for lunch served before the race, logically. It was a Styrofoam box filled with rice, beans, and chicken – la bandera. Before a run? I think not. So, we continued to wait and wait in this medical line, not knowing what we were being examined for on the other side. Dominicanos waited in their non-line-like fashion and tried to cut us at every bat of an eyelash. Finally, we got into the little office set up for our “medical exams,” where I swear my blood pressure was not even measured correctly.

I felt like we were in an SNL skit, trying to shut people out of the room so people wouldn’t cut and the work would actually begin. As a Red Cross worker left the room, leaving the door open after her, a lady poked her head in. She craned her neck around the door, offering a bucket of baked peanut goods with outstretched arms. Really? Really? She was trying to sell us peanuts, while we were having our official medical exam performed before a race.

The race started thirty minutes late, with no instructions and without separated age brackets. BANG. The gun shot off, and we all (children, men, women, and all) headed out on the “course.” I have never wanted to laugh more in my life, if I wasn’t hurting and dying from heat. There were Dominicans cheering us on from corner to corner, but the race was barely marked off. Motos and cars would sneak in and drive alongside us, as we were trying our best to even stay on the [unpaved] roads.

It got better when we reached people with water. One fourth of the way through the race, our cheerleaders became water boys. We were trying to avoid dogs and rocks in the road, while little boys ran after us dousing us with water bottles. If we were lucky, we got soaked head to toe with a huge splash of a full-size bucket of water. That was honestly my saving grace. Had I not been soaking wet, I would have walked the race, limping home in the heat.

On a serious note, there were people from all over the country. We met some serious runners from Santo Domingo, and I didn’t want to run near them simply due to their fancy gear. Julie Anne got third place overall and won pesos, Jess got seventh, and I – well, I finished. There was a whole crew from Doulos. Krista, the Director, and Chad, her husband and the Project Manager, along with their daughters. Sara, Amanda, Jess, and I. Greibys, the IT star. Of course, we had our own Doulos cheerleaders too! Eric, Mark, and Joey were cheering us on in the spots where we needed it most. Rounding one turn, they awaited us with a Gatorade. Mark was filming our run, and I can’t wait to see that footage, I think.

I met my first SC friend, too! Sandy from Sumter now goes down in the books. She works up at Escuela Caribe at the foot of the mountain.

SPIRIT-FILLED, Saturday, April 3 –

Worship at the Pace’s topped off the day. We started walking over ten minutes after we were supposed to be there, in our Dominican custom. Then, we encountered a gentleman who was going a bit crazy down the road in the darkness, yelling out who knows what and running about on the street. We decided to go the other way, so our ten minutes turned into thirty minutes late. Or right on time.

Patrick plays the guitar. Erin plays the flute. Jonathan plays the violin. That, my friends, is what we call one talented group to set the worship mood.

I felt so pure sitting before God that night. It’s hard to explain, but I hope you’ll understand. I felt clean, broken, and humbled all at once, coming before Him with all that I had to worship. Cecilia, Maria’s daughter had blow-dried my hair, my legs felt broken with my knees throbbing from the earlier run, and we simply came to be with the One.

FRIDAY, April 2 –

A day in Santiago. WOOHOO!

We took Amanda’s dad to the airport, in the rental car (pchyeah). Even that was eventful. Amanda, Jess, and I got out to go to the bathroom and so left Kymberlee at post in the car. When Jess and I returned, Kymberlee was not in sight, and then I saw the car doing the drive-by in the parking lot across the way. The cop had made her move, so we hopped in and looped around again.

Okay, so driving at an airport doesn’t sound that difficult, right? Wrong. Try driving here where no one’s paying attention, there are little to no signs, and babies and children can be seen left and right. This is all occurring while people are pulling in and out of the curb section, and cars are driving by to the left.

So, in a panic, Kymberlee let me drive. Ha-ha! I was so excited to drive twenty yards – until Amanda spotted us and got back in the driver’s seat. Maybe next time.

As I am writing this, I am reminded of how hilarious life here can be. When we found the inner city of Santiago, we stopped at a nice supermarket (not before turning around first) to buy candy for the movies. We found the mall (Plaza Internacional) where we parked the car but did not get out. Is it open? I don’t know. Go check. Look, people just came out! Well, it’s Semana Santa. What do you think? A “gentleman” came up to the car and let us know he would gladly check the mall’s open status in exchange for pesos. We decided to check for ourselves. The mall was open, but we’re not sure why; nothing inside was. So, we headed to see what else we could do. After asking the Pizza Hut workers where the bigger movie theater was, we drove off.

I got excited to see a Tony Roma’s sign outside of the plaza down the street. Tony Roma’s!

Thursday, APRIL FOOLS DAY -

Twenty-seven waterfalls. Need I say more? After leaving the beach, we headed out on an our driving adventure to find Los Charcos. Hours later, we did it!

...gotta run, but will finish later!!

Monday, March 22, 2010

"I wanna be in the light, as you are in the light..."

Quick update on the weekend, and then on to my current thoughts...

Okay, Friday & Saturday...we (my roommies and I) babysat for Sara, a friend and Doulos fellow-staffer. We soaked in every moment of being in their American house, whether it was snacking on American food, watching movies, talking on the phone, or using the internet. (Aaahh, the lap of luxury.)

Saturday, we went on a walk with the kids (Micah-1.5 and Risa-3), and I grilled us some amazing sausage-brats for lunch on the you-guessed-it-GRILL! Hooray! I think I'm more like a guy in my cooking preferences -- I absolutely looove grilling!

Then, we went to our friends', Erin and Patrick Pace's house, for a potluck where there was lots of yummy food and lots of sweet community of friends present. The potluck was in honor of Pachi and Ricki who used to work at Doulos. Pachi lives in TX now, and Ricki lives here in Jarabacoa for the time being. They have a little girl named Priscilla.

My heart sings with joy when I am in a house full of warmth, also packed with love and friendship -- and homemade goodness (food) -- oh, list almost complete but forgot the music!

Afterward, we headed to our friends' house (the girls' house) to watch "Bella," which I have seen before. I recommend it.

On the way home, Kymberlee, Laura (works for YoungLife), and I were walking slowly full of exhaustion. We got some hisses and "Rubia!" hollered after me. Then we heard "Teacher!" We continued to walk on, ignoring them. The truck pulls up slowly beside us, and the driver and passenger both break into laughter. It was two of our high school boys. Now they know, that's not the way to get our attention--pranksters.

Sunday -- a day of rest!! FINALLY! I slept in and enjoyed every minute of snoozing. I read, had sweet time with the Lord, practiced my Spanish. Then, I went over to Kyla's house and hung out with her and her lil' man, Judah. We went on a walk to Bon, the ice cream place by the park. Strawberry cheesecake ice cream in a cone on a hot, hot day was heavenly. Two ten-year olds came up to us with pamphlets, sharing the gospel and Christ. WOW. Brave. Can you imagine doing that to foreigners at that age? I can't. God is good.

Jess's sister is here at YL camp, Pico Escondido. She spent time up there with the group and then joined us for dinner -- homemade empanadas and fruit juice. Yumm.

WHAT a great weekend. I can't remember if I talked about Clemson being here at the YL camp, but they were. It was SO much fun to visit them last week and be with friends - or even strangers to me, when we all shared the following places -- South Carolina, Clemson, and America in common! What comfort. Plus, we had killer s'mores.

THOUGHTS...
So, last week I struggled with negativity, sadness, loneliness and complaining. Blech. Here's some verses that I've come across to help me combat all of this nastiness.

  • Philippians 2:5 -- Your attitude should be the same as that of Christ Jesus.
  • Philippians 2:3 -- Do nothing our of selfish ambition or vain conceit, but in humility consider others better than yourselves. Each of you should look not only to your own interests, but also to the interests of others.
  • Philippians 2:14 -- Do everything without complaining or arguing, so that you may become blameless and pure, children of God without fault...[GET THIS!] in which you shine like stars in the universe as you hold out the word of life...
  • 1 Thessalonians 5:16 -- Be joyful always; pray continually...
Hope these fill you with joy and challenge for your days. LOVE y paz!

Friday, March 19, 2010

Cultural Brief

Okay, per request of a special friend (hey, Jenny!), I am adding in some quick cultural notes:

-Every other Friday at school, we have club meetings. My favorite to watch is dance. There's a lot of newest rap-dancin' moves thrown in and combined with salsa-esque hip sway. Dancing comes naturally to lots of these kids. I can't imagine my friends in high school dancing so freely -- and particularly, so well -- during dance club.

-This afternoon, I went to the Villas down the street for a business run, to give some money and collect a receipt. We first greeted each other with kisses on the cheek, asked how the other was doing, and then she proceeded to ask me to please sit. Before even getting to why I came, we shot the breeze and talked about random bits of our lives. This is typical.

-For lunch today, I ordered a wrap; however, the lunch plate served was like the national dish, La Bandera. There was white rice, saucy chicken, and slaw salad. The plate is always served with juice -- usually tamarind(o) or limon. As previously mentioned, it is impressive for Doulos students to form a line around the lunch serving windows in a very American style. Lines are nonexistent here in the DR. We like to observe this heavily, so us teachers rarely cut.

-Cafe is a daily part of life here for many, like many Americans' routines. However, here it is brewed fresh from beans harvested from Doulos' coffee farm, Spirit Mountain.

-I had a specialty with lunch...the few and far-between Dr. Pepper. It can be found basically at one place in town, on the outskirts near YL camp.

-I am about to walk home from school and will most certainly get "hissed" at multiple times, about every few steps by guys driving by on motos, or those who are standing or sitting across the street, or you name it. Culturally, the DR is very machismo. I am thankful to be in a Christian work environment, allowing freedom from this idea during the day. It is normal for men to behave in this way, and often times I am thankful I don't speak fluent Spanish. Just call me "Rubia."

-At morning flag, the song we sing (or I hum) is very dramatic and orchestral with an operatic-like male voice singing the pledge.

-I need to stop by the bank on the way home, where I will exchange my money beside a bar that is always open. Next door, there will be another bar most likely with men sitting there who have been relaxing in this way for quite some time today. Merengue-type music or reggaeton will also most likely play in the background.

-On the corner beyond that, there is always a woman selling a homemade cinnamon, sweet corn drink that I have not (yet) bought.

-I will walk by, and cross intersections, of mad chaos where children have just gotten out of school in their blue-collared shirt and khaki bottomed uniform, where motos and cars alike are driving every which way all without street signs and traffic lights.

Tonight, I could not be more thankful to babysit for a fellow staff member and friend, Miss Sara, where my roommates and I will have the opportunity to use the Vonage phone, watch television, and use the internet. (Yes.)

Thursday, March 18, 2010

Quick Updates

A few more "animal" stories for ya...

-Often times I have fly-type bugs in my food at home, and I simply take them out and keep eating.

-Last night, I came into my room to put on my pj's, while a cockroach crawled out of my suitcase. I decided to let that one be, mainly because my roommate was already asleep. (You lucky bug, you.)

-My favorite this week...I came into my room after being gone for a week, and I walked over to my drawers to put something away. I glanced first at the dead cockroach, lying upside down on my clothes and was miffed enough. Then, out of the corner of my eye I saw something else hidden behind my clothes. There was a mouse peering up at me, and out of sheer shock I let out a blood-curdling scream and jumped around, running across the hall into Jess's room. It was hilarious. Purely hilarious. Later, it scurried out of my room and into the night out the back door. Darn mouse. (I'll get you next time!)

Wednesday, March 17, 2010

If you could only imagine...

AH!

Suddenly, Jess cries from across the hall, "There's a hUge spider in my room!" I run over to see it first before getting something to kill it with. Well, this thing was GIGANTIC -- literally the size of my palm. Pre-historic like.

I ran to get my tennis shoe and then decided my hiking boot would be better. I was in that swing and hold position, grappling with fear before following through. I was praying out loud and encouraging myself while giggling with nervousness.

I swung and -SMACK!-missed. The spider fled down below the shelf. Maria got home amidst the shrieking shrills from the three of us. Kymberlee could no longer watch and went back across the hall.

Little abuelita Maria (comes up to my shoulders) comes in and tells us not to be afraid, while describing its bite to us. We've got two wooden rods we're using to try and trap and squish the spider.

Clothes start falling off the shelves, or we're pulling them off as the spider continues to escape in its cubby area. Screams get louder each time as she misses yet again. Little Maria comes in slowly to the corner where the spider is "hiding" and then -BAM!- tries again. Finally, she tries a tactic where she uses the broom end of the stick.

This is my favorite part. Maria says, "en el nombre de Jesus!" and then going in slowly with a sudden movement closer to the spider, she gets him! He falls to the top shelf, and once more she squishes him to his ultimate death.

PHEW. (Unfortunately, there's one twice that size still lurking somewhere.)

Maria reminded me of the Power and Might of God. Afterward, she told me I don't fear anything. What if we could all trust in Him that much?

Tuesday, March 16, 2010

God's big on windsurfing.

The other night I was reading my devotion, and God spoke to me through a fantastic parallel. I think He must be big on windsurfing, from what came into my head. My roommate, Jess, and I learned to windsurf this weekend -- hopefully a new hobby when I get home!

Even though you might not have tried windsurfing, hopefully this speaks to you about God's will and following His path, regardless...

Proverbs 3:1-12 ~ Further Benefits of Wisdom

1 My son, do not forget my teaching,
but keep my commands in your heart,

2 for they will prolong your life many years
and bring you prosperity.

3 Let love and faithfulness never leave you;
bind them around your neck,
write them on the tablet of your heart.

4 Then you will win favor and a good name
in the sight of God and man.

5 Trust in the LORD with all your heart
and lean not on your own understanding;

6 in all your ways acknowledge him,
and he will make your paths straight.

7 Do not be wise in your own eyes;
fear the LORD and shun evil.

8 This will bring health to your body
and nourishment to your bones.

9 Honor the LORD with your wealth,
with the firstfruits of all your crops;

10 then your barns will be filled to overflowing,
and your vats will brim over with new wine.

11 My son, do not despise the LORD's discipline
and do not resent his rebuke,

12 because the LORD disciplines those he loves,
as a father the son he delights in.

We are starved for direction, but we do not have to fear. The Wind (Holy Spirit) is our direction. There are multiple options ahead and things that could happen: upwind, downwind, crosswind; falling off and starting over, going back to shore, staying close to swimmers or other windsurfers, going farther out on our own.

Which way to go? Should we change directions? As a beginner, we don't know everything about making the best directional decision. The Wind changes, and in turn our paths change.

We try to make the best choices and hope for the best, we want the Wind to take us, we innately desire staying on the path.

We want to know all the answers, the right way to point our arms and feet. We want to be fully balanced, but sometimes -- always -- we have to align ourselves with the ways of the Wind if we ever want to go at all, or truly learn how to surf.

To get direction from the Wind, we must understand it.

Just as learning something new feels transforming and freeing, a life with God at your center is fundamentally altering. He changes our character (our posture on the board) to be in line with Him, our outlook (knowing He is in control no matter what lies ahead), and our priorities.

We can do nothing at all, especially windsurf, if we do not let the Wind guide us, bowing to its presence. Sometimes, just as with the sail's boom, we have to truly let go of control to let Him guide us. When we "jump ship" and lose our balance, we feel lost.

In truth, aside from the metaphor, we are then directed by the person God has made us into -- a new creation governed by the indwelling Jesus. When we are up and sailing, then every true victory is His. We are fully reliant on Him, praising Him and celebrating His goodness -- His direction.

As Proverbs 3 says, we must first trust in the Lord with all our heart and lean not on our own understanding. (We refuse to lean on our own understanding -- the hardest part as a human. We acknowledge His sufficiency -- and our inefficiency in everything.) Then if we acknowledge Him in all of our ways, in everything we do, He will make our paths straight.

We are not using God, but acknowledging Him in everything, and then we can clearly hear and feel Him directing our paths through that intimate relationship.

Friday, March 12, 2010

Goodbyes can be hard.

Mosaic's work team left this morning, and a huge piece of me left with them. However, a huge piece of them stayed behind [with me]. Seventeen people came aging from twenty-two and upward, with four girls and thirteen guys. Here 's some thoughts from the week...

-At one point, we were praying after us girls led devotion. Ted, the pastor, was giving thanks for us sharing our hearts as women in the group. I realized when he said that I had completely forgotten we were so outnumbered by guys. That's huge in my book because I have felt uncomfortable around guys most of my life!! I know many people find that hard to believe because I've got lots of guy friends, but most of them are more of acquaintances than anything else. This week, I felt loved on and encouraged by guys of all ages, both single and married. I had godly examples in each of them, as they challenged each other and embraced each other as the unique individuals they are. I think I also felt comfortable around them because God is bringing me so much freedom in Him with each passing day here, more so than I've ever come to know before.

-I've got seventeen new, amazing friends who love the Lord in different ways and who are extremely different from each other.

-I don't know the last time I've laughed so hard or been so entertained; Mosaic, you need to start a stand-up comedy night. You'll raise all of Doulos' support for the entire school in thirty minutes.

-I felt empowered by God's gifts, grace, and strength through our service projects throughout the week; I don't remember the last time I worked so hard in the form of manual labor. (PHEW! I am sore in every way.)

-I did things I have never done before. We built a bridge to cross the creek at the Doulos coffee farm (Spirit Mountain), and we cleared and created a trail for mountain bikers to use. What hard, rewarding work that gave me hope and excitement for the future, with the knowledge that so many people are going to enjoy God's handiwork performed through us!

-I saw the most beautiful blanket of stars I think I've ever seen in my life one night when we were camping on the mountain...God stirred me in the night, and I opened my tent to a breathtaking view!

-I was FREEZING for the first time since I've been here; literally, I could not put on enough clothes. It was cloudy, rainy, and downright cold.

-We gardened and cleaned up the landscape outside of school and on the road. In America, we wouldn't have been on the median and in the street when cars and motos were whizzing by. Dominicanos were filming and taking pictures, enjoying the sight of us working so hard maybe??

-I was amused with myself and the growth God's pulled me to when we were building the bridge. After we had the posts in place (for the most part), it was time for the decking. I was walking across placing the wood slats down as we went, with gaps in between the boards. I used to be so afraid of heights, and I couldn't believe I was walking across an unfinished bridge confidently to add the decking! Hooray for positive change.

-Yoshi, my new friend, called me "outdoorsy." I used to want to have that word describe me, and now it truly does. That makes me smile.

-I held a beautiful, black and yellow snake on the mountain, and it was so fun to see God's creation so evidently in the palm of my hand!

-We spent the last night sharing encouragement with one another, learning in the Word, and praising Him through beautiful music filling the space at Las Villas. ("Oh, what a night...")

-I learned LOTS and LOTS about coffee. You should only buy organic. I usually don't say "should" as a highly suggested [mandate] to friends, but you should only buy organic. Did you know that everything else you're drinking is grown artificially with chemicals and pesticides out the wazoo?? Since the beginning, coffee has been a shade-grown plant. Next time, read your labels and make the best purchase decision! How was your coffee grown, or the better question is what do you really want to put into your body??

-A huge realization for me this week was wow, I'm growing up. At various points, I felt so mature but also like a grown woman. I had desires to hold infants that were around me, and not only hold them but truly love them. As I write this, I realize further that I am not simply maturing as a woman on this earth, but as a woman in Christ. He is maturing me just as He says we will become in James 1:4. I've had lots of things to persevere through in my life, but if this is where those struggles are bringing me -- bring it on!

-I learned some sign language from Olivia, another new friend who is amazing at sign, and I re-learned how to spell my name in ASL for the bazillionth time. While she helped me with that, I actually taught her some Spanish and how to ask our Haitian friend, Papito, questions. Man, sometimes we really do know more than we think we do!

-My eyes were further opened to everything Doulos Discovery School is doing here in the DR. At the coffee farm, there are sustainability efforts evident and nature is there for everyone to enjoy. There are mountain bike trails and walking trails, and creeks. The view is breathtaking, but the coffee plantation in that setting really does so much for the community both here in Jarabacoa and there in Manabao. A water source was extended to the community members that live below the farm, so they now have water inside their homes. A dream and vision of Chad and Krista is to one day build a pre-K/elementary age school in the valley to help children learn to read before going to public school. Maybe one day when that school is open, those children can receive scholarships to Doulos. Profit from the coffee farm is put right back into Doulos. The majority of the workers are Haitian who are paid well and truly have a relationship with Chad at the farm. Eagle scouts created outdoor facilities on the top of the mountain (kitchen and water source) as their final project, and now it's there for all to enjoy.

...TO BE CONTINUED...off to the beach (Cabarete) for the weekend! Finally.